A strange evening. My time here is swiftly drawing to a close. The past week or two has been crazy. Emotions, obligations. I got stranded in that storm. Some kid drove into my car. I offended a good amount of people and I feel like I have let most of you down, even though none of this has a direct bearing on many of you.
As always I will miss the people I have known for a long time, and as always (why is this normal for me now?) I’ve just started to get to know people who I quite like before moving away. I’ve only been here a year but many of you I knew before, even if you were just a voice on the other side of an internet connection.
Today is my birthday. I am twenty-eight today. Last year was a slapdash celebration for sure. The year before that was the temporal scene of a terrible, awful, no good break up. That it wasn’t in person helped little. I have tried very hard to find my own happiness in this world. I am cynical, jaded a little I suppose. I can be pessimistic and misanthropic. I am also a lapsed linguist, and periodic author. I am an atheist, and please don’t try to talk me out of that thank-you-very much.
Twenty-five was a milestone. Quarter of a century. It still feels now that I must have at least another century to go, though even if I did I suspect I wouldn’t be able to fill the majority of that time with interesting occurrences. The years since have been busy, and yet not. In fact this year I am practically starting over again. I’ve rewound the clock five years but I don’t have much to show for it. Thirty is on its way, and I did not suspect to be writing this now.
At any rate, as I take stock of and pack up my assorted possessions while thinking of how to delicately word my two weeks notice in a way to not burn any bridges, a certain set of songs come to mind. Rich and yet simple, sonorous and joyful in equal parts. I listen to enhance this feeling, for good and for ill. I like to relish the sound. Swim in it. This is the song I have selected for my birthday this year. It is a little sad I suppose, but it is also hopeful. If you listen, it is there. I don’t do resolutions, and the changing of the year has no special significance really other than a return back to the real world, but hopefully these notes will get things started properly. If you would rather not sit through all of these, that is a shame. Please enjoy Xerxes and Frog at least. Init if you have time. These are my favorites from this selection.